I literally cannot win. I expect things to happen, I’m gonna take some hits. But SERIOUSLY?!? All at ONCE? you’re joking, right? This has got to be an awful freaking dream.
I need to hit/break someone/something.
I don’t think I got an RA job. I’m poor, in an enormous amount of debt, I’m probably not gonna get a loan for next year, and I can’t go anywhere else for my program. My dreams have crashed and burned today. How’s your day going?
I’m 20. Okay. Is the day over yet? Ugh. Only an hour in and I’m already tired of the attention.
Kara says I deserve a good day. So I’m just gonna try to enjoy it.
So it seems that things keep getting worse. If I stay in bed all day, will that change it? Or at least make bad stuff stop happening? Please. I can’t handle seeing my family hurt. And it hurts me to be so far away. If you read this, pray for my nana and my brother, Andrew. He really needs it.
Not sure how to feel. I’m sad, scared, nervous, distracted, etc. Nana starts chemo on May 17. Someone hold me.
Went and watched Clare’s synchronized swimming. Then went to see the cabin in the woods with Christian, Steven, and Shaun. Then I made songify songs with Mikey and Thayne. Then Camille, Doug, Kara, Pat and I all talked. Ended the night brushing my teeth with a girl talk with Camille. Fun :)
My top material possessions (in no particular order): Ring nana got me. Blankie. Svd bracelet. Giant frog. Eeyore. My beddddddd.
I know it isn’t technically the third anymore, but frankly I don’t care.
Today Christopher would have been 20. I can’t believe in July it will be five years now. Today hurt. It made me sad.
Today my dad is eligible for retirement. Yay Dad!!! My dad is the best :) he’s got his 25 years in for fire service. But he’s stuck at the fd until he gets a big boy job. Or December 1, when he can draw his retirement funds. Whichever comes first.
